Sunday, January 18, 2009

bad mood and freak show

I am in such a foul mood. The kind that feels like poison. I'm having images of tourettes, or rabies. I wouldn't be surprised if I'm frothing at the mouth. And the worst part is that there is no reason for this. Or, well, I don't know the reason for it.
I woke up tired again- and this is ridiculous, the girls slept until 8. I brought S into our bed at 6, but she went back to sleep until 8, and only kicked me a few times. I can't sleep all the way with the girls in our bed, though. It feels a bit out of body- I'm sleeping, I know I'm sleeping but I'm on some kind of heightened alert. H was up a few times during the night, I don't know whats going on with her, shes been waking up a lot. I'm thinking it has something to do with the fact that I said to another mom in our gym class, "shes a great sleeper now" I said it out loud and with confidence, with out a disclaimer, or knocking on any wood or even formica.

S is in some kind of velcro mode and won't. get. away. In a proud parenting moment I said "Whats going on with you freak show?" Of course H is on the floor laughing FREAK SHOW!? Fabulous.

Off to mend my mood.


Katydid said...

Ha! Freak show! I love it. I'm pretty sure that some of the things A repeated to his teachers, etc. made me sound like a horrific parent. We are just creative, eccentric, outside the lines parents. I think I would have loved to be a freak show. It's a little like the circus, no?

Left of Ordinary said...

Oh, I've been having many days like this lately (today being another one). Sorry to hear you're in a funk.

Hope today is a better day.